After a long day, it’s nice to come home to this:
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I think that was the year when I started letting my students write journals. They could basically write anything in their journals. I was surprised when Michael’s came in because they were very verbose and expressive. He talked about himself, how he was extremely shy and how he came to be that way.
I would then use his journal and write back to him, encouraging him. During class, I would coax him to talk and speak up (it was speech class, after all). And I could see him try but his voice was always so soft that nobody could really hear him very well. But I liked it that he tried.
I remember him writing in his journal at the end of the year, thanking me for trying to help him, thanking me for my effort. I gave him a book – I think it was “A Connecticut Yankee in King Arthur’s Court” as my graduation present to him. And I can still remember his shy smile and the slight sparkle in his eye as he thanked me for the gift. Unknown to him, he had also given me a gift — the opportunity of reaching out to him and loving him.
One of my most cherished memories of teaching was when I coached a student of mine named Erik Chua to compete in a citywide oratorical contest. Erik was unassuming in class. He was neither at the top nor at the bottom. He was neither very participative nor very quiet. When I asked students to audition for the contest, I didn’t expect Erik to volunteer.
But when he delivered the audition piece, I sensed something in him, a raw, untapped power. So I chose him over all the others. I wrote a speech for him to memorize and internalize and so began the training process.
We spent many hours after classes rehearsing his lines, perfecting his gestures and the tone of his voice, and making his facial expressions really come out. The sun would be gone when we were done and both of us would be exhausted. We would repeat certain sections over and over until he got it right, until his emotions were synchronized with mine, until the speech was no longer mine, but his as well.
At the end of our training session, I could start with a sentence anywhere in the speech, and he could immediately take over and deliver the next lines flawlessly.
We went into the contest where he would compete with around 10 other contestants from different schools. The venue was in the Central Bank Convention Hall of Davao and it was packed with a bedlam of students from all over the city, each cheering for their own school.
When it was Erik’s turn, he stood and delivered his speech. And when he did it, it was far better than any of our practice sessions, and I was very proud of him. For me, that was the ultimate victory, not really to win, but to see him deliver it as he had never delivered it before. Winning was just icing on the cake. His victory over himself was enough.
But we did get the icing on that contest. Erik was proclaimed the champion and after all these years, I can still remember the wide grin on his face as he embraced the trophy. I still remember the joy. I still remember the triumph.
And I feel so blessed to have been a part of it all.

Drei and mom
Drei is a smart little girl and seems to be able to pick up stuff very quickly. There was a time when she got her brother’s school workbook and did his homework. When he found out about it, he complained because he wanted to do the work himself.
She is also now beginning to read words, just a few months after Aidan picked up the skill. Her teachers in school have told me that sometimes, they forget that she is just 3 years old (turning 4 next month) because she acts, talks and behaves like an older child.
Here’s a conversation I had with Drei a few months back:
Drei: Daddy, I saw baby Moses in school!
Me: Really? Did you see him on TV?
Drei: Yes!
Me: Was he in a basket?
Drei: Yes!
Me: Was he floating down the river?
Drei: No! In the swimming pool.

Aidan and me
We got his name from one of our favorite songs called “Let Mercy Lead” by Rich Mullins. My wife had sort of a supernatural encounter while she was pregnant with him. In the silence of her heart, she heard a voice promising her that this baby would be a boy — this would be her Aidan.
So against all odds, the boy came out and he was named Aidan. In fairness to my folks, we have had many experiences of people mispronouncing or misreading his name (so I guess their fears weren’t that unjustified after all). But then again, we just shrug and laugh at all these. I’m used to my surname being mangled after all and my wife is used to her first name being murdered as well.
Aidan is turning 6 this May, and I have no doubts nor regrets of ever giving him that name.
Here are the lyrics of the song from where he got his name (he already knows this song, and even calls it his song):
Aidan, you’re young, and Aidan you’re growing fast.
Me and you’re mom, and all of the love we have,
We can only take you so far, as far as we can,
But you need something more to guide your heart
As you grow into a man.
Ref:
Let mercy lead, let love be the strength in your legs
And in every footprint that you leave there’ll be a drop of grace
If we can reach beyond the wisdom of this age
Into the foolishness of God that foolishness will save those who believe
Although their foolish hearts may break they will find peace
And I’ll meet you in the place where mercy leads.
Aidan, the day, Aidan the day will come,
You’ll run the race that takes us way beyond,
All our trials and all our failures, and all the good we dreamed of,
Well we can’t see yet where it is you’re heading,
But one day you’ll see the face of love.
Ever since she was around 2 or 3 years old, Faith would ask me to tell her a story before she goes to sleep. At first, I would just pick a storybook from the bookshelf and read it to her (or use it as a guide as I told the stories in my own words). Later on, she learned to read and she did it very well. She went through the entire bookshelf in no time.
So I now had to invent my own stories. Later on, she came up with a couple of characters that represented her and her brother (Drei hadn’t been born then). She was Princess Gold and her brother was Prince Silver. And so began the saga of Princess Gold and Prince Silver (and later, Princess Diamond). I really had to dig into my brain to create original stories or recreate and adapt from stories I already knew.
This Saturday, Faith is turning 9 years old and I realize that I have been inventing stories for her for the past 5 or 6 years. She still enjoys stories of Princess Gold, and I still enjoy telling them, when I can think of an interesting plot. At other times, I would begin telling a story even if I still didn’t know how it would end. I have to think of the story on the fly.
I look at my little girl when she’s fast asleep and realize that she’s not so little anymore. I hope that in the coming years, she will still be interested in my stories, and I hope she will also tell me some of her stories as well.
Tonight, I brought along Faith and Drei with me. Aidan had to stay home because he was sick (but he wasn’t too sad because that meant he could have more time to play on his mom’s laptop — the kid takes after me in terms of computer game addiction).
What was different tonight was that instead of me holding the shopping list and both of them tagging along, I split the list in half and gave the other to Faith. She was now responsible for pushing her own cart and collecting the items in her list. We agreed to meet in the fruit section when she was done.
As I pushed my cart (with Drei riding it) and collected the items in my list, I felt a twinge of fear when I no longer saw Faith. What if something happens to her? What if someone kidnaps her? What if she gets lost? But I stayed those feelings and just trusted that she would find her way around. I reminded myself that she was big enough, old enough (9 years old), and sensible enough.
A little later, we did meet at the fruit section as agreed and she had completed her list (with a few more added items like lollipops and potato chips).
One of the hardest things for me to do as a parent is to let go of my kids – to let them find their own path, their own voice; to let them make mistakes and get lost; to let them get hurt. Yet, inside I know that if I continue to keep shielding them, I am ultimately harming them. There is danger in exposing them to risks, but there is greater danger in not exposing them and not training them to fend for their own when I am no longer around. In the end, I just have to learn to surrender and trust that they have within them the capacity to be independent and survive.
This brings to my mind a short anecdote by Anthony de Mello in his book, One Minute Wisdom:
To a disciple who was always at his prayers the Master said, “When will you stop leaning on God and stand on your own two feet?”
The disciple was astonished. “But you are the one who taught us to look on God as Father!”
“When will you learn that a father isn’t someone you can lean on but someone who rids you of your tendency to lean?”
May I have that heart and that kind of love to rid people of the tendency to lean.
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